This Is Me Trying

I've been having a hard time adjusting
I had the shiniest wheels, now they're rusting
I didn't know if you'd care if I came back
I have a lot of regrets about that
Pull the car off the road to the lookout
Could've followed my fears all the way down
And maybe I don't quite know what to say, but I'm here in your doorway

I just wanted to you know that this is me trying
I just wanted to you know that this is me trying

They told me all of my cages were mental
So I got wasted like all my potential
And my words shoot to kill when I'm bad
I have a lot of regrets about that
I was so ahead of the curve that the curve became a sphere
I fell behind on my class, late until I ended up here
Pouring out my heart to a stranger, but I didn't pour the whiskey

I just wanted to you know that this is me trying
I just wanted to you know that this is me trying

At least I'm trying

And it's hard to be at a party when I feel like an open wound
It's hard to be anywhere these days when all I want is you
You're a flashback in a film reel on the one screen in my town

And I just wanted to you know that this is me trying
I just wanted to you know that this is me trying

At least I'm trying