SCARS

You got me thinking
You fucking like all of my friends
Just by you talking to them
Know that you probably not
But I can′t get all these thoughts out of my head, I'm over it man
And you′re my drug so if you're to leave, I'll probably be sober again
And at this dose, if you were to go, I′d probably die in your hands
I′m hearing it over and over again
Struggling hard to lower the sound
I only get mad at you telling your friends
You wouldn't drag me if they weren′t around
Telling the truth and you never would lie
Believing in you or beliеving my mind?
Who do I trust this time?
I've been ignoring myself and I think
I haven′t reminded myself to go sleep
Killing myself
Ain't really feeling myself
Ain′t really been myself
Sometimes I feel I should get some help
But I know that I feel dead
So I need to figure out
If I'm hell or heaven-sent

So lost in the dark with no one to hold me
Scars all over my face, no one told me
And all our songs about grace, never showing
And every wrong that I fucking faced, leave me lonely

Tired of feeling I wake in the morning not making a difference
Tired of feeling I'm lonely mourning the vows I shouldn′t have given
Tired of feeling I′m torn apart with doubts, it's fucking my vision
Tired of feeling I′m pouring my heart out
For everybody and nobody's listening
At least I thought you did
Gave you all my heart, now I can hardly give
Caution from the problems and the cost it′s with
And every moment I bleed, there you go hoping for better than me
Just know when I go and I leave
All you get is photos to remember of me
Yeah yeah
Whatever I'm destined, feeling depressed and
Within my chest its, ripping the flesh
Give it my best, to live out my blessings
Nevertheless, it′s written in flesh
It's written in-depth like it's my testament
I ask myself "am I hell or heaven-sent?"

So lost in the dark with no one to hold me
Scars all over my face, no one told me
And all our songs about grace, never showing
And every wrong that I fucking faced, leave me lonely