One Summer Last Fall

kid i held you with these arms that felt so hard

you kept your chin up and i held my guard

made a prison bed from a life i never led

let me correct these mistakes you delight in

God i hope i get it right ive been practicing tonight

kid i hope it holds soime fraction of its feeling

if you keep believing then ill keep on being

a ghost in his prison bed short sheeted and shook dead

looking at love he still hasnt made yet

that i couldnt make to you baby, i can barely move

kid you were wrong that wasnt me in that song

you write the lie youd like to be

when your life feels like a book you wouldnt read

kid ive lived through others i made myself so mall

i lived through a record one summer last fall

the singer said something i could only feel

i saw him this morning he still looked real real

God i need him here tonight

i just know hed get this right

kid im a mess

if it looked good youre seeing things i guess

i changed my mind so many times im a strobe light

flickering freak. the baby of the week

im starting to see someone i could never be

kid what went wrong? we had it all now its all gone

i blew my mind out now its your turn to find out

what we all need

what we all mean

im starting to see someone i dont want to be