New Disease

now I can take this, everything I know
realize that I'm nothing I wanted to be
I can never change anything i've done
because it's the only thing I have left

blame myself again for what I didn't do
never even knew it was coming from me
it changed the way I felt, the worst is yet to come
because I have gone too far now

nobody
changed my mind
and it leads me to a new disease
somebody
let it die
but it still becomes a new disease

is this all worth what this has done to me
watered down my senses and turned them on me

fuck morality and everything I know
if I didn't hate this than I couldn't cope
impersonate myself for what I used to be
denial is all that's left now

nobody
changed my mind
and it leads me to a new disease
somebody
let it die
but it still becomes a new disease

seething in my head
I'm suffering instead
I can't remember why
this meant so much to me

doubt
did I ever want this?
it's all I could've been, it's all I would've been
doubt
did I ever want this?
it's all i've ever been, it's all I'll ever be

seething in my head
I'm suffering instead
I can't remember why
this meant so much to me

nobody
changed my mind
and it leads me to a new disease
somebody
let it die
but it still becomes a new disease