My So-called Life

About to burst

violence seeping through my cracks

i bottle up the pain

cover up my sorrow with a couple of laughs

Smiling outside (and Im)

Crying inside(and Im)

Losing faith in what I feel (oh)

This hurt can't be real

Living in my so-called life

trying so hard not to cry

theres so much i lock up inside

the good things in my life have died

im losing losing myyy mind

Im falling down

and I can't seem to pick myself up

Everytime I find a good thing for me

I lose it and get stuck in a rut

Smiling outside (and Im)

Crying inside (and Im)

Losing faith in what i feel (oh)

this pain it cant be real, oh it cant be real

Living in my so-called life

trying so hard not to cry

so much i lock up i bottle inside

the good things in my life have died

loooosing my mind

Hide behind my wall of shame

Im tired of playing this game

I try to let my saddness out

but theres everything to lose and nothing to gain

Ive lost my will to live

Suicidal but I'm in denial

in the mirror i see a broken child

but yet i hold on, yeah i hold on

Just livin in my so-called life

trying so hard not to cry (I cry)

Hurts to breathe

just livin in livin on, livin in my so-called life

Livin on i wont cry

I let my feelings out from inside

and the good things in my life keep me alive

in my so-called life