If Only I Were A Butterfly

Sometimes I don't feel quite myself here

Sometimes I don't feel like it's my home

I would like to be a place

Where I'm free to play

A place I call my own

Sometimes I feel like

I'm trapped in a spider's web

And each thread is in itself a problem

So I try to break free, untangled

But I'm back to where I started from

Oh, if only I were a butterfly

I would fly so high

Right past the sky

And let go my fears

Let go of my despairs

I leave them to the air

Without a care

I walk alone in the dark

I wander through the night

I lie to look up high

To see the starry sky

It gives me strength to know

There's peace somewhere up there

So quiet, so undisturbed

I'm mystified

In my bed I lie awake

And I'm dreaming of that land

So far away from me

It makes me want to cry

Pray for the day for I die