Holding Back The Tears

I kind of keep asking myself little questions

Like where do I go from here

I seem to keep loosing track of time and how long it's been

Since I last had you near

Been a painful road to a door that's closed

Been a gamble that I knew I couldn't win

Been a lonely conversation to this photograph of you

In the mirror there's a sing I must give in

So I'm not holding back the tears anymore

tryin' escape the heartache, tryin' escape emotion

No I'm not holding back the tears anymore

Yesterday's my memory reminding me of all the time

I depended on you

I used to enjoy spending my time on my own here

Watching the jaded people pass

Now here I am sharing their pain and their lonely tears

And walking a road of broken glass

It's a constant fight to get through each day and night

It's a war between the present and the past

And the face that's in your mind every time you close your eyes

What's the reason, what's the answer, how long will this last

So I'm not holding back the tears anymore

tryin' escape the heartache, tryin' escape emotion

No I'm not holding back the tears anymore

Yesterday's my memory reminding me of all the time

Been a long time since I heard your last goobdye

Still I hear it clearly every day and night

What's the point in love when you have to give it up

Yet still you need it and it's nowhere you can find

So I'm not holding back the tears anymore

tryin' escape the heartache, tryin' escape emotion

No I'm not holding back the tears anymore

Yesterday's my memory reminding me of all the time

I depended on you