HAPPY

Dear God, please, hear me out
I know it′s been a couple years
Since I've reached out and said helloI bet You′re wondering

Why I keep
Obsessing on and stressing all the little things
When I should be
Living life and soaking up the memories

I know I've been selfish, I have
No excuse to give you, it's true
Hanging by a thread′s how I live
I don′t know why, but I feel more comfortable

Living in my agony, watching my self-esteem
Go up in flames, acting like I don't
Care what anyone else thinks, when I know truthfully
That that′s the furthest thing from how I

Feel, but I'm too proud to open up and ask ya
To pick me up and pull me out this hole I′m trapped in
The truth is, I need help, but I just can't imagine who
Who I′d be if I was happy

Yeah, been this way so long
It feels like something's off when I'm not depressed
I got some issues that I won′t address
I got some baggage I ain′t opened yet

I got some demons I should put to rest
I got some traumas that I can't forget
I got some phone calls I been avoiding
Some family members I don′t really connect with

Some things I said I wish I would of not let slip
Some hurtful words that never should of left my lips
Some bridges burned, I'm not ready to rebuild yet
Some insecurities I haven′t dealt with, yes

I'll be the first to admit that I′m a lonely soul
And the last to admit I need a hand to hold
Losing hope, headed down a dangerous road
Strange, I know, but I feel most at home when I'm

Living in my agony, watching my self-esteem
Go up in flames acting, like I don't
Care what anyone else thinks, when I know truthfully
That that′s the furthest thing from how I

Feel, but I′m too proud to open up and ask ya
To pick me up and pull me out this hole I'm trapped in
The truth is, I need help, but I just can′t imagine who
Who I'd be if I was happy

Don′t know what's around the bend
Don′t know what my future is
But I can't keep on living in

Living in my agony, watching my self-esteem
Go up in flames acting, like I don't
Care what anyone else thinks, when I know truthfully
That that′s the furthest thing from how I

Feel, but I′m too proud to open up and ask ya
To pick me up and pull me out this hole I'm trapped in
The truth is, I need help, but I just can′t imagine who
Who I'd be if I was happy

If I was happy

If I was happy