Drowning

I think I lost my mind a while ago
Cos I've been seeing some ghosts
And I'd be lying if I told you I'm fine
But I lie
Yeah, these thoughts I would never speak out loud
I've seen you cry but I've never seen you shout
Like a hurricane, these shots don't ricochet
Sight blurred I'm walkin' dazed, girl I'm fucking faded
Or maybe wasted, I can't remember how it happened
Oh I don't know my limits at all
I'm sinking down into my thoughts
Oh my god

But so what if I drank too much
This ain't love, its just a firefight
And even if it's not enough
I'll say it once I swear I never lied
But this is the last time
But this is the last time
But this is the last time
But this is the last time
You'll ever bring me down
Girl you know I'm drownin'
And I keep goin' down
But I'll swear that I'm not, I'm not, I'm not

It's friendly fire and sunlight
The aftermath of one too many
Words I said, when I should of said nothing at all
At all
I gotta stop overthinking
And missing
What could have been
You were never even really here
And still were are spinning
Just liars and cheaters
Right back where we started
But it don't get easier
I am drowning
In liquor and apathy
Will be the death of me

But so what if I drank too much
This ain't love, it's just a firefight
And even if its not enough
I'll say it once I swear I never lied
But this is the last time
But this is the last time
But this is the last time
But this is the last time
You'll ever bring me down