brutal

I want it to be, like, messy

I′m so insecure, I thinkThat I'll die before I drink
And I′m so caught up in the news
Of who likes me, and who hates you
And I'm so tired that I might
Quit my job, start a new life
And they'd all be so disappointed
′Cause who am I, if not exploited?

And I′m so sick of 17
Where's my fucking teenage dream?
If someone tells me one more time
"Enjoy your youth," I′m gonna cry
And I don't stick up for myself
I′m anxious and nothing can help
And I wish I'd done this before
And I wish people liked me more

All I did was try my best
This the kind of thanks I get?
Unrelentlessly upset (ah, ah, ah)
They say these are the golden years
But I wish I could disappear
Ego crush is so severe
God, it′s brutal out here
(Yeah!)

I feel like no one wants me
And I hate the way I'm perceived
I only have two real friends
And lately, I'm a nervous wreck
′Cause I love people I don′t like
And I hate every song I write
And I'm not cool and I′m not smart
And I can't even parallel park

All I did was try my best
This the kind of thanks I get?
Unrelentlessly upset (ah, ah, ah)
They say these are the golden years
But I wish I could disappear
Ego crush is so severe
God, it′s brutal out here
(Yeah! Just having a really good time)

Got a broken ego, broken heart (it's brutal out here, it′s brutal out here)
And God, I don't even know where to start