Bother

Wish I was too dead to cry
A self-afflictions fade
Stones to throw at my creator
Masochists to which I cater

You don't need to bother
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on
I won't let go till it bleeds

Wish I was too dead to care
If indeed I cared at all
Never had a voice to protest
So you fed to me shit to digest

I wish I had a reason
My flaws are openseason
For this I gave up trying
One good turn deserves my dying

You don't need to bother
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on
I won't let go till it bleeds

Wish I'd died instead of lived
A zombie hides my face
Shell forgotten with its memories
Diary's left with cryptic entries

And you don't need to bother
I don't need to be (I don't need to be)
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I'll die
I'll never live down my deceit.