At Peace

Hedge every bet, lick every boot, make every appeal
Prostrate yourself to the killing machine to spare yourself from its wheels
"Better them than me" rolls so seductively off your tongue
Your reckoning has begun

WHOOAHH

In spite of endless war, extinction level events, depredation and plague
Every one of your ancestors survived to reproductive age
The probability that you are even here is next to none
Hey, no pressure everyone!

When shit got dark I had to face it alone, there'd be no crying for help
Just how I'm wired, I've had to figure shit out my whole life by myself
I ain't saying it's cool, it's fucked up, truth be told it's cost me a few friends
Sometimes you must protect yourselves

Motherfucker I'm resourceful, resilient, I power through the waves of disappointment
Maybe not quite thriving but I'm buoyant
I am at peace these days
Give or take a fit of blinding rage

I can't seem to shake the belief
That there's a liminal state between
Death and rebirth in which you and me
Reconvene

Oh yes, I'm really fun at parties
Draw a dink on my face with a Sharpie
Excuse me sir, this is an Arby’s
I am at peace

I am at peace
Though presently
Convulsed with grief
I am at peace

Some days I'm scared I'm gonna die
Or even worse I might survive
I try to keep these words in mind:
"Nothing worth having comes without some kind of fight. Gotta kick at the darkness til it bleeds daylight."