Amateur

Now i can sit, not run away stupidly laughing
Wipe out all self-pity, it's slowing me down
Turn off feeling pretty, dressing up dressing down.
I walk around the city out of my way, looking for something
I've got all that i need to save my day, so why'm i running?
You said i should get professional help, it always makes me cry.
I know i'm just an amateur, but i've gotta try.

I had a birthday party and it was packed, got friends who love me
We hung a disco ball up and watched the lights, they were so lovely
When exactly are we? i get the decades mixed up.
I like the streets when they're empty, i can make the rest up.
Every day is new year's eve, every night is the last night.
Every day is new year's eve, every time is the last time.