I done been torn up mentally

Beaten up physically

They think I′m just emotional so clearly no one listeningI ain't seen bars yet still faced imprisonment

Tryna love life but I′m barely even living it

See I don't trust nobody, nobody loves me

Insecure when I see the mirror the truth ugly

Look at all the shit I did, really disgust me

Everybody talk, tryna see if they discuss me

Stuck in one place I ain't move since the rap shit

I can′t even vent right, we just sit in silence then

My girl don′t even trust me, she think I'm on another bitch

But little do the world know I been on some other shit

Dying on the inside

Crying on the outside

Ashes falling outside, when I open mouth wide

I ain′t been myself in a long time

Right hand on all bibles I don't even tell lies

I been dying on the inside

Crying on the outside

Ashes falling outside, when I open mouth wide

I ain′t been myself in a long time

Right hand on all bibles I don't even tell lies

I don′t tell no lies, I don't see no signs

Smelling dead roses prepping for the day he call mine

Tired from the wars I ain't have no one at my side

But still everybody expect me to be on go time

Wake up every morning feeling like I ain′t sleep since

That bitch left me on my own and took a piece with

Now my new shorty ain′t happy, I can't sleep again

One eye open for the day that she leaving

See I been dying on the inside

Crying on the outside

Ashes falling outside, when I open mouth wide

I ain′t been myself in a long time

Right hand on all bibles I don't even tell lies

Long ago me and gang was chilling out in Popeyes

Talking ′bout our dreams back then I was 5'5

Stacking notebooks ′til my funds make me 6'9

Still rocking with my blood, can't a nigga call me 6ix9ine

And I ain′t been myself in a long time

′Cause I been crying on the inside

And I ain't been myself in a long damn time man

See I been dying on the inside

Crying on the outside

Ashes falling outside, when I open mouth wide

I ain′t been myself in a long time

Right hand on all bibles I don't even tell lies

Dying on the inside

Crying on the outside

Ashes falling outside, when I open mouth wide

I ain′t been myself in a long time

Right hand on all bibles I don't even tell lies

I ain′t been myself in a long time