Looking back now I didn′t know what it was supposed to be

And, and it's like raising′ kids, man

If you weren't raised, you don't know how to raise, you know?I just did the best thing I could with them because

They know fucking well I love them

But I didn′t do the best I could

I didn′t know what the fuck I was doing

I didn't

I will never forget watching my mother get put in a straight jacket

And taken out of my home when I was only seven years old

She was diagnosed with dementia praecox and put in a mental institution

Leaving my daddy alone with me and my little brother Lloyd

I later had an evil stepmother

Who further cemented the idea that I didn′t need a mother

Growing up without one

Had long lasting impressions I didn't fully understand until much later in life

It bled into my relationships with family

And those I had become romantically involved with

Whenever I got too close to a woman I would cut her off

Part of that was vindictive and partially based on fear

But it was also totally subconscious

Looking back is a bitch, innit?