Goddamn

Goddamn goddamn goddamn

I get up more than I fall, Ls are a lesson not a lossI will never ask god for an easy life, I need insight inside so I′ll endure a hard one

I done been through so much trauma and some drama I'm just trying to go

I gotta keep on keeping on

Sometimes I feel like I′m helpless and feel like a burden

I get frustrated and feel selfish because inside I'm hurting

Why can't my smile be real, Gotta hide how I feel

My heart is so sealed, goddamn

Just let me laugh and chill, Really let my mind heal

But I gotta pay bills, goddamn

I can′t see which path is right, Mental health or the grind

How do I survive, goddamn

Tell me should I even try, I′ve heard too many lies

Who can look me in my eyes, goddamn

Working to get rich, but I'll still be broken

I want to live my best life, but it feels like I′m choking

What do I want my life to mean, Should I stay or should I leave

Do I even want to breathe

Why am I here? Just to feel so alone

Why am I poor? Just paying rent and my phone

Why am I stressed and upset? Why can't I rest?

I guess, being depressed is when my mind works best

I can′t escape this anguish, til I put the pen to the pages

I try to unleash my pain, I take the key to cage, it's

Unlocked now and I feel so dangerous, most say I′m outrageous

I'm letting out rage at a pace seeming impatient

It's heinous, spontaneous, the changes, exchanging vows in Vegas

I want a bae to elevate with, a dame who can speak my language

It complicates to communicate, for days the blame is evasive

I range from detached to insane, fate stays placed way too aimless

I′m done with shamelessly chasin′, my mind is alienated

I wouldn't trade it, the main trend is complacent with sameness

Cheating in the game makes me wanna fade ′til I'm GTA wasted (San Andreas

Respawn back at the hospital, but I won′t get back to the basics. Goddamn

Lately I just wanna be alone, I've been stuck in my home, in my zone making songs, Goddamn

Nowadays I feel more prone to the stress that′s grown, but I'm known to be strong, Goddamn

Lately I just wanna be alone, I've been stuck in my home, in my zone making songs, Goddamn

Nowadays I feel more prone to the stress that′s grown, but I′m known to be strong, Goddamn

Yo, what's gotten into me, fuck it I′m my worst enemy (You shouldn't be drinking this Much)

Look at me Dee I hate your energy

This is what you get when you mix depression with Hennessey (Not again)

Don′t fuckin', don′t you fuckin' look at me like that in the mirror (Listen, listen)

If you're listening then holla ya hear it (Oh my god)

Windex couldn′t make this shit clearer

You think being half financed is getting you far (Bro this is not you talking)

Won′t admit you envy Cole and Kendrick Lamar (This is not you talking)

You act like it ain't jealousy but you′re fake

Because you hate they're successful and the fact that you ain′t (What)

Your daughters three and she told you she don't love you nigga (No she does nigga)

Now you feel the tension every time she hug you nigga (Bro you tripping)

Cuz she put her mother′s family above you nigga (Really? Really)

She don't want you nigga, she's like fuck you nigga (No)

Wait, where the fuck is my phone

Shit, I need to make a phone call

Mom, mom

She needs to pick up my phone

Pick up my call, shit

Hello welcome to the mental health hotline

If you′re obsessive compulsive press 1 repeatedly

If you′re codependent ask someone to press 2 for you

If you have multiple personalities press 3 4 5 6

If you're paranoid we know what you are and what you want, stay on the line and we′ll trace your call

If you're delusional press 7 and your call will be transferred to the mothership

If you are schizophrenic listen carefully and the small voice will tell which number to press

If you′re depressed it doesn't matter which number you press, no one will answer you

If you′re dyslexic press 69696969

If you have a nervous disorder please fidget with the hash key until the beep

After the beep please wait for the beep

If you have short term memory loss please try your call again later

And if you have low self esteem hang up all of our operators are too busy to talk to you