6 in the morning

I′m here writing

Venting to myselfIt excites me

I unlocked a hidden door inside me

And I already made my way inside it

Vision is getting clearer and all

I'm projecting how I really feel

Always said my introspective raps

Was me just being real

I focus more when i′m alone

And the sun is down

When i'm getting personal

Ain't no way I can dumb it down

Cause I been writing stories bout my life

It′s now a habit

I got something i′m pursuing

I don't need any distractions

Had to block you

I can′t let you get any access

I can't let you get in the way

Of who i′m gone have next

Even future me ain't trying to deal

With any bad press

See me out with someone of status

Thinking we had sex

Who i′m fucking ain't your concern

Hope charges get overturned

I'm knowing it′s more to learn

It′s not a wrap yet

Only God is the judge of me

Not judge Mathis

I been staying outta trouble

And not being problematic

I am not the guy you think I am

Come see it for yourself

I been changing up for me

Ain't changing for nobody else

That′s the problem

All these years

I never really loved myself

When I was screaming out in pain

That was me screaming out for help

But they ain't listen

They ignored the cries

Tried to help my mama understand me

She fail every time

Funny how we the same height

And we still don′t see eye to eye

I spaz out

She call 12 on me

It's like all the women in my life

Put a spell on me

And I was born cursed

Wont you come smell this hell on me

I′m drained and i'm tired

It's ironic when the smoke clears

That′s when i′m on fire

I ain't bout to leave at all

I′ll be here for a while

So just relax

Yeah

The shit you did, helped me

So thanks for that

Too far along

There ain't no coming back

All the vices I once had

I′m now done with that

I missed out on opportunities

Let's run it back

I ain′t shit but funny how some girls

Always running back

They just can't get enough

Wishing I was closer to my family

Man that shit is tough

When you all divided

No more holidays

At Mommy Helen's

Shit is quiet

And It was elementary

When everyone was vibing

And I bus riding

Yeah

Make no mistake

I make my best songs

Dealing with a heartbreak

I got the balls to share

What don′t need sharing

But honestly at times

It can all get overbearing

I wonder how you feel

If you ain′t have that miscarriage

Your parents don't even know

You and I could of been parents

For real

They dodged a bullet though

They don′t even fuck with me

So if they was hear this

They'll be glad it happened luckily

I always seem to think about that night

It really stuck with me

It′s been like 10 months

I'm still needing recovery

Did all of that for what?

And still tried to be under me

Grateful for it though

It was humbling

I′m drained and i'm tired

It's ironic when the smoke clears

That′s when i′m on fire

I ain't bout to leave at all

I′ll be here for a while

So just relax

Yeah

The shit you did helped me

So thanks for that

So thankful

Yeah

So thankful for the things you did

Without you I wouldn't be this big

Without you I′d still be sleeping in my whip

I can't leave cause i′m way too lit

I'm turned up with my really rich friends

I came far and I ain't look back since

I was stuck in a depression

I ain′t been returning no calls

Not even txting

I was sleeping on me

Whole time I was really resting

Until I finally woke up and rearranged my perception

And fixing my imperfections

I′m choosy with my selections

The women I encounter are usually 9s or better

Tom Ford fragrances embedded on my sweater

Only spitting facts

This luxury rap

Wouldn't be this way without you so

Thanks for that

Truly

From yours truly

Yeah