It's Been Awhile

It's been awhile since I could hold my head up high,

It's been awhile since I first saw you,

It's been awhile since I could stand on my own two feet again,

It's been awhile since I could call you.

And everything I can't remember,

As fucked up as it all may seem,

The consequences that I've rendered

I've stretched myself beyond my means.

It's been awhile since I could say that I wasn't addicted, and,

It's been awhile since I consider I love myself as well as,

It's been awhile since I've gone and fucked things up just like I always do,

It's been awhile but all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with you.

And everything I can't remember,

As fucked up as it all may seem,

The consequences that I've rendered

I've gone and fucked things up again…

Why must I feel this way,

Just make this go away,

Just one more peaceful day,

And it's been awhile since I could look at myself straight,

And it's been awhile since I said I was sorry,

And it's been awhile since I've seen the way the candles lights your face,

And it's been awhile but I can still remember just the way you taste.

And everything I can't remember,

As fucked up as it all may seem,

To be I know it's me

Can I blame this on my father?

He did the best that he could for me?

It's been awhile since I could hold my head up high,

And it's been awhile since I said I was sorry