Today, up on this hill

I′m counting all the killers

They sway as they swarmA look of gluttons in their eyes

They mutter as the body loses warmth

They pick your bones like locks inside a tomb

And take great care to not take care of you

Here's an unexplainable one

Here′s an unexplainable one

While I was learning to live

We all were living a lie

I guess you got what you wanted

So I will settle for a slaughterhouse soaked in blood and betrayal

It's always somebody else

Somebody else was me

You want the real smile?

Or the one I used to practice

Not to feel like a failure?

I don't need you to do it for me

I don′t need you to understand

I don′t need you to hide it from me

I just want to feel like any other man

I won't show you the whole story

I won′t show you the aftermath

I won't show you my allegory

Don′t look away

Here's an unexplainable one

Here′s an unexplainable one

Here's an unexplainable one

I'm not ahead of my time

I just drew the first breath

If I′m alive tomorrow

I will alleviate the pressure

By cutting you out of me

I found my bottom line

Dead on the front lines

I know I′ll never go home

So set fire to your ships

And past regrets and be free

I don't need you to do it for me

I don′t need you to understand

I don't need you to hide it from me

I just want to feel like any other man

I won′t show you my whole story

I won't show you the aftermath

I won′t show you my allegory

Don't look away

Here's an unexplainable one

What have you done?

What have you done?

While I was learning to live

You taught me how to die

I guess I got what I wanted

Another needle in the back through purified scarification

It wasn′t somebody else

You fucking did it to me

You want a real smile?

I haven′t smiled in years