Hello

Uh, it′s Ren

I don't really know how to start this letter... fuck it

Is this life really what it seems

′Cause lately I've been in this place between awake and dreams

I know I only reach out to you when I'm feeling blue

I promise I′m not using you, I′m just confused

I've got some questions I would like some answers to

Like is there meaning to this state of short existence

My existential thoughts sure hope there are, ′cause I'm resistant

To thinking that there won′t be something better in the distance

And God, is there and afterlife where pain is non-existent

If you're up there God, do you sit upon the throne

Or are you a humble soul wearing sandals and tattered clothes?

Do you mingle with the people like an equal then on Sundays

Just kick back and chill and put your feet up?

Did I really choose this life that I′m living now?

Will my sins be forgiven if I speak them out?

I won't lie to you, God, if there is a heaven

I really hope I get there 'cause for real it sounds like heaven

Reading past the lines

I just let go

Searching for prophets, my faith it is paper thin

So many questions in my mind

They replay like an echo

They never stop, my Messiah is porcelain

Dear God

Why do people kill each other in your name?

Is it really what you want or have we lost our way?

′Cause it seems like religion can cause division

Or people living in prisons of moral values they′re given

What is right and what is wrong

Am I a sinner if I don't comply with everything that Moses said

Or is that dumb

And why do people disguise hatred in your name

Homophobia, a history of violent wars, and causing pain

High priests in their towers stacking riches

Women burnt at the stake called witches

In the name of God, Allah, Zeus, Jesus

People claiming lives justified by your alligance

I think its more complex than good versus evil

I think that theres both darkness and light inside people

And through different eyes a man called a terrorist could

Be a freedom fighter if he′s fighting for the side you're with

Reading passed the lines

I just let go

Searching for prophets

My faith it is paper thin

So many questions in my mind

They replay like an echo

They never stop my messiah is porcelain

So is it ignorant to claim that we know what you want

And if I fast for the sabbath is that what you want

Or is tradition just superstition,

Religion a human vision just crafted out of peoples ambition

Listen

I knew a girl that lost a baby before it was born

What is the purpose of that god

What is it for

Why did my best friends die before I hit 25

Is it cause there is something better in the afterlife

God, I′ve been feeling suicidal lately

Mental health is worsening

Feels like it might break me

If you're watching, you know that I′ve been strong

But God how much longer do I have to hold on

Please just give me some solace

So that I know you've got my back

Please just give me some relief

God, is that too much to ask?