Forgive and forget

I forged this in red ink

Always assured myself that blood′s more thickBut without water, how will I drink

And quench my thirst for your sweet curse?

I've been a sucker since birth

But that doesn′t mean I can't forgive her

I know it'll be a long winter without her

But I′ll be fine with or without her

Until I have my outburst

Sudden knees gets weak, that′s underneath

A week goes by, she's in my dreams each night

I just can′t seem to set aside the time to try and get it right

That's right, I′m getting by

Just trying not to be left again

Pessimistic, tell me it's right, oh, no, it isn′t

Tryna fight myself with optimism

Tryna find myself in all this liquor

Tryna fill my mind, but it always is her

Can I occupy my heart? Can't miss her tonight

Tell me I have my own mission to find

But how can I, how can I?

How can I devote this emotion?

Motionless in bed, always hoping

That the songs I wrote can do this feeling justice

I'm not good enough, it′s never sufficient

I can′t mind my own business

I don't know my own limits

I′m sorry you have to witness this

My hands are shaking

My bones are aching

I know I'm making a scene, but I′ll settle down

I'll make a mess to make amends

You want forgiveness? Just take it then

I′ll say it's fixed, but can't begin

To accept reality if that′s what this is

Pessimistic, tell me it′s right, oh, no, it isn't

Tryna fight myself with optimism

Tryna find myself in all this liquor

Tryna fill my mind, but it always is her

Could I have my space? No, you need yours

I take it back, I′m wrong, of course

I'm always right, but I′ll say you are

If it gets us far and we stay our course

And it's only fair

Keep it in the fairway, it′s better there

Tell me your dreams, I'll get us there

They're always watching, let ′em stare

They′re always watching, look this way

I take it back, please look away

I anticipate my next mistake

Is coming soon and it could be great

Expectations never met

You probably wish we never met

But that's okay, I′ll make my way back to you

I'm not ready yet

Ready, set, go

Said you′d never, ever let go

Of my hand, but you exchanged mine for another one

Used my last chance, I need another one

But I lost you with empty promises that I regret every day

Wish I could mend all that had happened, but the pieces are broken

Look at the time that I wasted

On you and your selfish ways

Deception written on your face

I hate that I'm so addicted to you

When you told me you loved me, knew it wasn′t true

But I'm trying to figure it out

Trying to keep it together

I'm coming apart at the seams

Promise it′s not as it seems

Need your attention for a minute, darling

Feel like a dog digging through the garbage

Trying to savor what′s left of this connection that we once had

I guess it's all in the past

But I′m trying to figure it out

Trying to keep it together

I'm coming apart at the seams

Promise it′s not as it seems

Need your attention for a minute, darling

Feel like a dog digging through the garbage

Trying to savor what's left of this connection that we once had

I guess it′s all in the past