I always thought that I′ll be happy with some money, well now I got some money

Now I wanna bring you back with this rapping

Now we all know that can't happen, but who says that I can′t wishAnd it's extremely hard to think it, let alone say this

Hold it down mama, you my dawg, you know I miss you

You wouldn't want me crying, I know, but I had to, take that back, I have to

But they sad no more, they ain′t confused no more, they ain′t angry no more

I think I'm closer to the dream of selling out stores

But I′m not sure because the stores ain't really no stores no more

I thought I was close to falling in love, but I′m not sure no more

Yeah they pretty sure enough, but I dont know anymore

I'm just lost, cold and alone, completely out of the zone

Not talking about the comfort, on that side of the fence I′m great on

Can't even put the brakes on, haven't had the chance to think

Haven′t had the chance to speak, haven′t had the chance to breathe

After discomfort comes with ease, at least that's what they told me

Because they don′t have the memories on the nights you used to hold me

Even on the days when you told me, don't be out here running the streets

Make sure you always looking clean, make sure you always eat

I′ll make sure to find some peace, a white tee and Jordan 3's and a chair

While I′m at it, I'm riding back to Mellon Street

And to put on a grin when they see me, this time it's no doubt

I know you always up there smiling, saying boy -

History is in the making

If the pace isn′t set for me, imma make it

Rolling through 430 just to assess all the damages

Rolling through 430 just to reassure the plan again

Tell my mother I love her, almost ain′t have the heart to keep on trucking

No need for the bluffing end of discussion,

I'm at a disconnect, between the right and left

Combined with stress, in other words my life is a mess

All my friends got babies now, exes got bridal showers, crushes got bridal gowns

Was this in the plan for me, to practice so heavily, for a flow so heavenly

Tears of success they rain down on my Jesus piece

But I don′t know if that's success or it′s sorrow

Wide awake but this still a nightmare on the hollow

I will trade this all today to see my mama tomorrow

I came back, pants sagging, still chasing the dragon

With this rapid fire rapping, still causing reactions

Had a run in with the matrix, but I'm skipping the crashing

Still the best in the world, but you thinking I′m bragging

I'm a one man feature, I'm the whole magazine

Got sick of being in the shadows, put the spotlight on me

Trying to cap the lighting trapped in the bottle twice was my vice

Now I′m riding through the city like I′m Tommy Vercetti

I ain't playing, what you saying, with no gas I′m still blazing

Quick to flip a couple tables if able, a solo stable, even with cable

You don't want no static, it′s problematic

Even if you read the manual it's still automatic

I don′t need your approval, I don't need your committee

I don't need no brass rings handed out by a city

I shattered the glass ceiling with no glass in my eyes, can′t go back to square one when I′m on 35, I tried

Maybe I'm too driven by my passion to succeed

Maybe I′m just way over my head with these dreams

Where's your feature, where′s N

That's what you need, that′s your weakness

If you think that's what I'm fearing, who I′m needing, you can′t see me

There are people that need me, either dead or alive

I'm still up, jeans ripped at the thigh, sneakers untied

I got my head in the clouds, wiping lightning out my eyes

I can′t tell my God kids I failed cause I ain't try

And since my grandmama died, I′ve been trying to gain composure

All these demons 'round me while I′m tryna keep my head up

Let me not throw the race card, but the Trump card will ace ya

Coming from a place if you make a mark, they'll erase ya

Shout out my exes, I see y'all out here stepping

Clicking flutes of champagne glasses, popping depressants

You see me under fire, just know it′s all suppressive

I′m from the hood I know the block, I just don't wanna see it

Lost my grandmama, my aunt and friends, and I ain′t never grieved it

Went to hell and back and beat my demons, they just don't believe it

I done, tripped and stumbled, number 1 in the rumble

And that rumble is royal, the ring you′ll be under

Still the best in the world, 430 the come up

And I ain't stopping until I see a come up over the come up