[1]

i spent my whole life

in love with despair

kept my lungs full

with the breath of their

mute atmosphere

... i became what i hate.

and thus shall i remain

to give birth to a mighty assassin

armed with a weapon of words

to defy the lies

to never compromise

no.

today, my name .... is pain.

[2]

i stood

beyond the world

whispering secret syllables

in the eyeless dark

dancing wildly

round and round on the rotting ground

surrounded by the dead dusts of Hell ...

this is how i delete myself

& this is how i corrupt everyone else

obey

obey

betray

betray

you are not unique.

you do not need to think.

take it, take it!

i will,

i will ... i will.

you succumb, so nicely.

[like an insect staring back, like a dying dove]

my love ..... [no] ..... my love.

[song]

so here we are again

the sheets are stained & bloodied

the animals scratch at my skin

here we are again

my face is scraped & bloodied

i've nothing left to give

- i wasn't there,

- i'm not involved,

- i'm innocent,

- it's not my fault.

- i wasn't there,

- i'm not involved,

- i'm innocent,

- it's not my fault.

.. here in the suicide trees.

.. here in the suicide trees.

[[no. bloody, bloody, bloody, MURDER!]]

AMONG THE EXCREMENT OF MY SINS!!

it's not happening, it can't be happening, it's not happening.

so here we are again

in secret ceremonies

changing shape, amen.

here we are again

pretending not to notice

the illness sneaking in.

- i wasn't there,

- i'm not involved,

- i'm innocent,

- it's not my fault.

- i wasn't there,

- i'm not involved,

- i'm innocent,

- it's