I remember a time when wanting to die was as easy as riding a bike

Gradually and then all at once

Feeling alive was like watching a foreign film without subtitleUtterly lost and left questioning the point to it all

I remember being afraid to close my eyes

Even to rest because the rest of what′s left inside the burrows of my mind is unkind

I remember ripping open my skin

Just to find that I was clipping way too thin to survive

Searching for a reason to be alive

I had to revive the will to create

To not discriminate

To put an end to the self hate I inflict

The old scabs of the fights that I picked

The kicks that I get when I don't repent

Stuck here wondering what happened to that wandering girl

The one I once knew who claimed she′d take over the world

She always wanted more

Fighting an itch to explore

I'll never stop wondering if she'll find what she was looking for

Too that lonely little girl

I′m sorry

I left her to drown

When all I wanted was to never let her down

I hope I can find what she was looking for

I hope I can be what she wanted to see

Before I waltzed through the wrong door

But for her

I seek redemption

The chance to finally feel proud

For her, not to mention

I′d shout it so fucking loud

I give to you all my only valuable possession

My confession

A short life's worth of depression

Developed anxiety of societies mighty recession

Idles of a young hopeless romantic, of a girl too clueless to help it

Records of the highest highs to fly on and lows too low to know

This is all I know

This is all I have

This is all I am

I hope it can repay my debt to that little girl

Because I owe it all to the persistence in her twirl

The deep seeded need to see a change in the world

To anyone who might want to hear the rambles of a burnout

It′s too soon to tune out

Please continue to listen carefully

And tread with care

Here for you, my cold heart is uncovered

Scarred, naked and bare