Mama getting high up in the kitchen

Daddy wasn′t there, he was missing

Nobody was there to even listenI kept all my problems and kept feelings hidden, yeah

And I put the blame on me

I put the blame on me

I put the blame on me

Only ten years old

I'm already numb, yeah my heart′s getting cold

Saw my mama getting weaker, hurt me to my soul

The only man she loved, how could he do this to his girl

He put that pistol to her head

I swear he coulda shot her dead

Man that liquor made him evil

I swear that man ain't had no reason

That s- just turned him to a demon, yeah

Fast forward a couple years

I done turned twelve

Living life one hell to the next hell

I got cousins touching me inappropriately

And don't nobody believe me when I tell

When you learn that shit heals, ain′t no one to look up to

And the same people hurting you telling they love you

Before too long you start believing

That maybe you′re the reason, yeah

Mama getting high up in the kitchen

Daddy wasn't there, he was missing

Nobody was there to even listen

I kept all my problems and kept feelings hidden, yeah

And I put the blame on me

I put the blame on me, yeah

I put the blame on me

Age fourteen, left East St. Louis

New drama but I really ain′t new to it

Hear 'em laughing at lunchtime and I′m the joke

Black and white was too black for the white folks

I can't do nothing ′bout my face

Feeling all outta place

Over something I can't control

F- is wrong with these people?

Or is it something wrong with me though? Yeah

Age sixteen, life's still mean

Mama fell hard, needed rescuing

She got a new man, he told her simply

She could stay with him long as she don′t bring me

I guess she had to make a choice

Did what she had to do

Chose him over her own kid

I don′t know what would make her do this

Had to be something I did, ooh

Mama getting high up in the kitchen (Eh)

Daddy wasn't there, he was missing (Eh)

Nobody was there to even listen (Yeah, yeah)

Kept all my problems and kept feelings hidden, yeah (Ooh) yeah

And I put the blame on me (Blame on me)

I put the blame on me (Ooh) yeah

I put the blame on me (Blame on me)

I was homeless ′till I turned eighteen

Started living with a man I was dating

Last thing on my mind was graduating

All about survival and money-making

I would sing to escape my reality

Just tryna play the cards God dealt me

Posted myself singing a song 'cause it was on my heart

When it went viral I was working in Walmart

I got a new start

Taking my pain, turning it into art

Turning bad times into hot sounds

For the first time where I belong

Twenty now, making moves, making money now

Rainy days hella sunny now

But every now and then I think about

Mama getting high up in the kitchen (Eh)

Daddy wasn′t there, he was missing (Eh)

Nobody was there to even listen (Yeah, yeah)

I kept all my problems and kept feelings hidden, yeah (Ooh) yeah

And I put the blame on me (Blame on me)

I put the blame on me (Ooh) yeah

I put the blame on me (Blame on me)