My mama gave me up when I was four years old

She didn't destroy my body but she killed my soul

Now it's cold 'cause I'm sleeping in my back seat

Understand the spirits with me but my flesh is week

Let me speak, I never had a chance to dream

Ten years old finding love in dirty magazines

Mrs. December you remember I bought you twice

Now I'm thirty plus and still paying the price

Had a sister that I barely knew

Kind of got separated by the age of two

Same mama different daddy so we couldn't figure

I saw my sister's daddy beated at the temple naked

Taking serious the demons in the mans mind

The same daddy with rape charges now he's doing time

Crack followed my daddy in for thirteen years

Haven't seen him cause he's ?

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Shout Shout

Let it all out

These are the things I can do without

So come on

I talking to you

So Come on

Sex was how I made it throught

I so wondered teaching love so how did it do

So where I'm from they call you gay and say you ain't a man

Show them you ain't no punk

Get all the girls you can

Stop playing man that was just back in the day

Back to seventeen and got a baby on the way

Re-D-G all I see is failure in my eyes

If you listening then remeber I apalagize

I was raised all up in the church

Made mistakes heard the lord calling in the church

After service on the parking loy getting high

Wanted to be excepted so bad I was willing to die

Even tried to tell the pastor but he couldn't see

Years of low suckers demons and ?

Church taught me how to shout and speak in tounges

But please teach me how to speakwhen the tounge is done

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See I'm See I'm

Soul surviver Soul surviver

World surviver

I just wanna let it go

World surviver soul surviver

Just wanna let it go

Jesus please on my knees hat you hear my cry

You said to put it in your hands and lord I'm really trying

You wasn't lying when you said you'd do what you so

Like that night mama died

Hard to let it go

You adopted me

Cared for me

And changed my name

But I cursed at you

Lied to you

Let your pain

It's not strange I can still see it in my head

To know If how I was laying in that bed

If you listening to us day and night

If my mama is living you tell her right

Don't be like me and let that woman slip away

And be careful cause you can't take back what you say

To my real mama if you listening I'm letting it go

To my father I forgive you 'cause you didn't know

And the pain it was preperation for my destiny

And one more thing lord that my son will be a better man than me

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