I wish I that I could just see everything clearly

But I′ve been drowning in the dark

Can't help but push away when you try to get near me

It seems that all I cause is harm

And I can′t seem to understand

No matter how I try I can't become a better man

And losing you was never in the plan

I guess I'll have to look inside to find the strength to stand

Cause now I′m back up on my lonely

Back to acting coldly

Scared to face the fact I turned my back on most my homies

Staying in the past so much I missed out on the moments

That was right in front of me

But I ain′t even notice

I can't keep my focus

I stay steady zoning

Though I′m staying sober

I feel scared of all these omens

Try to open up but it feel like my words been stolen

Only time I can is when I'm writing all these flows and

I just can′t control it

Feel like time is frozen

Riding on beat and I feel like I'm finally home yeah

I just want some peace of mind and I been steady hoping

California dreaming bout the destiny I′ve chosen

And I think that I might've lingered too long

I don't think I′ll survive if I don′t move on

And I don't care bout who′s right

And less bout who's wrong

All I know is I ain′t been okay in too long

I've been wide awake all alone in my bed

Thinkin′ bout the times we had together, wishin' I was dead

But my problems lie much deeper embedded up in my head

Try to hold it all together, this weather is such a dread

Doin 95 on the freeway

Tryna feel alive bumpin' T-Pain

Then our song came on and I lost it

You can see it in my eyes, I′m exhausted

Numbin′ the pain with the drugs

Gettin' bit up by these bugs, ay

My mind′s a basement that's flooded

Feelin′ it all in my gut, ay

I just wanna be okay

Wake up and start like today's a new day

I got 142 days left to change

But this rain has got me feelin′ strange

Maybe it's the potent in my potion

Puffin' marijuana to rid of all these emotions

Cloudy days of gray are my forte, I fucking know it

I′ve been stagnant on my floor, hopin′ that I don't blow it

That I do not blow it

Baby, I′ve been trying so damn hard I hope you know it

2017, I'm still the same kid that you know and

Wherever you go, I′m down to go I hope you know that, yeah

I hope you know that

All this time with you I should've knew that I′m a poet

Write it all away until these skies finally change

Maybe I'll wake up tomorrow feelin' rearranged

And I think that I might′ve lingered too long

I don′t think I'll survive if I don′t move on

And I don't care bout who′s right

And less bout who's wrong

All I know is I ain′t been okay in too long

And I think that I might've lingered too long

I don't think I′ll survive if I don′t move on

And I don't care bout who′s right

And less bout who's wrong

All I know is I ain′t been okay in too long