It's been a long time since we last spoke

I still wonder what you're up to

After all the shit we've been through

And I've been spending a lot of time drinking and smoking

Hoping to subdue

The thought of you in my head

So if you're out there somewhere

And if you still even care

Possibly still questioning what is he doing

I've been tryna find a way to numb all this pain

Since you've been away

I don't wanna feel anymore

And there's probably people telling you that I'm doing fine

Just taking my time

Although it appears that I'm strong

It still hurts

There's been a lot of nights when I feel alone

Needed someone to talk to

'Cause I just need to get through

And I've been spending a lot of money

On things that I don't need

Hoping that I'll feel new

But I can't get you out my head

So if you're out there somewhere

And if you still even care

Possibly still questioning what is he doing

I've been tryna find a way to numb all this pain

Since you've been away

I don't wanna feel anymore

And there's probably people telling you that I'm doing fine

Just taking my time

Although it appears that I'm strong

I've been tryna find a way to numb all this pain (girl, I've been trying to find a way)

Since you've been away (a way that I can numb this pain)

I don't wanna feel anymore (I don't wanna feel)

And there's probably people telling you

That I'm doing fine (I'm just trying to get you outta my head)

Just taking my time

Although it appears that I'm strong

It still hurts