Early mornings jacking off

Late nights jackin off

Daddy′s couch jackin offNot even stopping when my dick is soft

I got offended when people took the conversation

Like you're doing fine let me stay and talk about my problems

I have no problem with being ya therapists replacement

But maybe this ain′t the time and place to try go and solve em

We get into the agenda

Hate that word reminds me of work

And I'm at home now

And nothing I planned for seemed to really work

I spent my grocery money on a chain

That had my nickname

And it's the name you only say if you don′t really know me

I only came here to play some games and run from my self hatred

But it seems that God has different plans and that shit is just not for me

My sister tell me not to stress

Stay away from all that mess

My daddy tell me stay the course

But the course is looking like a set

Up, for failure

And I done failed too many life times

And I′m always open ears

But sometimes I feel

Like I ain't gotta life line

It′s hard to open up

It's hard to trust

Shit is so fast

I′ve ran into 3 ex's it was awkward in the past

Last

Month

I′ve changed

But I wish that i could be better

Wish that I could wake up motivated to make this life better

Wish that I could delete you from my life and make my life better

But I know it's not you it's about me

But to put it on you makes life better

You cannot lie to the soil

All that shit isn′t for you

I listened to Saba′s EP

Like that shit was all written for you

6 hour drive til I'm home

But I feel so fuckin homeless

I mean I′m dying inside

And ya heart is just where the home is

Why couldn't I say all of this

In front of all of my homies (Home-mays)

I saw them the whole weekend

Renewal is coming up shortly

And There′s just so many layers

Being from a place like nowhere

And there's just nowhere to go

Which means there′s nowhere to grow

I been so focused on money

Hadnt even spoke about my soul

Cuz man that shit is so low

It's hard to struggle solo

I know I got some real friends

But I choose to talk to fake ones

Self sabotage at its finest

Come show me how to break one

I been this fake since day 1

I Got bullied on day 1

Got tired of all that shit

So now I am a playa

Nobody likes a Queer athlete

So let me stop all this traction

So then I turn to a mathlete

Cal AP taking a backseat

Tell her that I have a track meet

My speedo I'm quite attractive

She went to go fuck on homies

My virgin ass was so lonely

Not really asking for much

I just wanna be all accepted

But not by ppl like me

Cuz to me that shit was a death wish

I was too poppin for nerds

But too smart to stay at the park

Change my name to groovy in college

I couldn′t deal with this marc

I′m too smart the evil scientist just tryina play in his part

Finessed my way to the top

Every party I'm gonna pop

But where the fuck do you go when you feel you peaked in that life

And it didn′t bring all the shit you thought it would I'm driving at night

Cut the lights off swerving down the lane I just might end it tonight

What the fuck has my life come to? Is this even MY life?

Jewels ass cheated on me

I broke up August 13th

I woke up August 14th

What the fuck happened to me

WOAH