If I drop the ball

I won′t escape the jaws of defeat

Got to hit the wallBefore I get to fall

The heaviness is haul

My mind is a circus

Sad clown reason freaks us

Tight rope fall but I never crash

Light hope I stall because I linger brash

All I ever wanted was better prospects

Called by other haunted cause and bitter projects

On the edge and the crowd keeps pushing

Back against the wall staring at the pit

I engage let the clouds be my cushions

If I drop the ball

I won't escape the jaws of defeat

Got to hit the wall

Before I get to fall

The heaviness is haul

Couple of dollars swimming around me

I know that they need it but they need a holla

World treat me like I′m a dog

Coping they take off the collar

Throw me a follow

I have been hollow since I was alive

Cross to my heart pray that I gotta die

A sacrifice

Adding some spice

Mix up the tempo the beat going nice

Not Mr Stenbo I be a good guy

I ain't Lornezo I'm thin terms of size

Brothers ain′t wise

Talk to me like I′m a dead man

Making these tracks to the ends man

Whip up all the dough cook it in a pan

Left hook but don't call me Peter Pan

Better watch what that mouth do

Close it shut till u stop the loud hoons

Not a PowToon because I ain′t animated

I got one emotion and it's frustrated

At the world telling me it′s hesitating

Can we fix it or are we forever waiting

While we're here me and you maybe do some mating

Come back to the crib and we do some baking

And you know I could do this all night

But shorty′s pussy is too tight

Thought I had a big tool right

But she said I did alright

This hit you different when life is trying to bake you

I whip it and flip it and take you by the hand

You can squeeze it or leave it

It's a bargain girl

Soul sold to the devil

It's better than give it to a label

Check my timetable death is already scheduled

When I was a child I used to get sucked by the boogie man

Motherfucker ain′t got no monsters in my bed

If I drop the ball

I won′t escape the jaws of defeat

Got to hit the wall

Before I get to fall

The heaviness is haul

This concludes the first act of Esvi's Nocturne

The gripping emotion behind the apologetic

But yet romantic storytelling

Outlines perfectly the needed closure of a past relationship

The crescendo in last section of the piano score

Dramatically portrays how the young author

Chose not to yield to his demons and depression

Gathering his very last strengths

He won that battle on the razor′s edge

And can now move on