DMC, we have a mid-30′s male found down, unresponsive

Possible overdose, substance unknown

Pulse is 60 and thready. Respiration's 8He′s intubated, and we're baggin' him now

Uhh, BP: 90 over palp. Patient is cool, pale, and diuretic

Has aspirated, uhh, GSC is 3, We′ll update en route, ETA ten minutes

As I, fall deeper into a manic state

I′m a prime candidate for the gene to receive the drug addict trait

Blood pressure climbs at a dramatic rate

I seem to gravitate to the bottle of NyQuil then I salivate

Start off with the NyQuil like "I think I'll just have a taste"

Couple of sips of that, then I gradually graduate

To a harder prescription drug called Valium like "Ya that′s great"

I go to just take one and I end up like having eight

Now I need something in my stomach cause I haven't ate

Maybe I′ll grab a plate of nachos and I'll have a steak

And you′d think that with all I have at stake

Look at my daughter's face

"Mommy something is wrong with dad I think

He's acting weird again he′s really beginning to scare me

Won′t shave his beard again and he pretends he doesn't hear me

And all he does is eat Doritos and Cheetos

And he just fell asleep in his car reading Three Musketeers in the rear seat"

Sometimes I feel so alone, I just don′t know

Feels like I been down this road before

So lonely and cold, it's like something takes over me

As soon as I go home and close the door

Kinda feels like déjà vu, I wanna get away from this place I do

But I can′t, and I won't, say I try, but I know, that′s a lie

Cause I don't, and why I just don't know

Maybe just a nice cold brew "What′s a beer?"

That′s the devil in my ear I been sober a fuckin year

And that fucker still talks to me he's all I can fuckin hear

"Marshall come on we′ll watch the game, it's the Cowboys and Buccaneers"

And maybe if I just drink half, I′ll be half buzzed for half of the time

Who's the mastermind behind that little line?

With that kind of rationale man I got half a mind

To have another half of glass of wine, sound asinine

Yeah I know, but I never had no problem with alcohol

Ouch look out for the wall, aim for the couch I′m 'bout to fall

I missed the couch and down I go looking like a bouncy ball

Shit must've knocked me out, cause I ain′t feel the ground at all

Wow, what the fuck happened last night, where am I?

Man, fuck am I hungover and God damn I

Got a headache, shit half a Vicodin, why can′t I?

"All systems ready for take off please stand by"

Sometimes I feel so alone, I just don't know

Feels like I been down this road before

So lonely and cold, it′s like something takes over me

As soon as I go home and close the door

Kinda feels like déjà vu, I wanna get away from this place I do

But I can't, and I won′t, say I try, but I know, that's a lie

Cause I don′t, and why I just don't know

So I take a Vicodin splash it hits my stomach then ahh

Couple of weeks go by it ain't even like I′m getting high

Now I need it just not to feel sick, ya I′m getting by

Wouldn't even be taking this shit if DeShaun didn′t die

Oh yeah, there's an excuse, you lose Proof so you use

There′s new rules, it's cool if it′s helpin you to get through

It's twelve noon, ain't no harm in self inducing a snooze

What else is new? Fuck it what would Elvis do in your shoes?

Now here I am three months later, full blown re-lapse

"Just get high until the kids get home from school Holmes relax"

And since I′m, convinced that I′m an insom-niac

I need these pills to be able to sleep so I take three naps

Just to be able to function throughout the day, let's see

That′s an Amb! en each nap, how many Valium, three?

And that will average out to about one good hour's, sleep

Ok so now ya, see, the reason how come, he

Has taken four years to just put out an album, B

See me and you we almost had the same outcome, Heath

Cause that Christmas you know the whole pneumonia, thing

It was baloney was it the methadone ya, think

Or the hydrocordone, you hide inside your pornos

Your VCR tape cases, with you Amb! en CR, great paces to hide ′em ain't it

So you can lie to Hailie, "I′m going beddy bye Whitney baby good night Alaina"

Go in the room and shut the bedroom door, and wake up in an ambulance

They said they found me on the bathroom floor, damn

Sometimes I feel so alone, I just don't know

Feels like I been down this road before

So lonely and cold, it's like something takes over me

As soon as I go home and close the door

Kinda feels like déjà vu, I wanna get away from this place I do

But I can′t, and I won′t, say I try, but I know, that's a lie

Cause I don′t, and why I just don't know