I′m sick but I already told you that's once

That blood you saw last time wasn′t fake it's real I do my own stunts

That gun had bullets I just got lucky I play Russian roulette for funThat knife was trash I got it replaced it didn't cut deep it was too blunt

That girls still here she′s sucking my dick

I might of been wrong she may be the one

We′re not in love but in 2021 I'm going to let her have my son

So we can post and fake happy while our real lives come undone

And stay home and watch re-runs

But I don′t want your sympathy

Fuck your help!

Everyone's and expert on everyone else except their fucking selves

Last time that I made a song I left a lot of shit on that shelf

′Cause I know you're to weak to hear the truth or care about how I felt

And oh Hi comment section!

Did you know your words describe you

And not me and bounce back

′Cause in life we project our insecurities on people we wish we could be

While blinded by the fact that we're our own biggest and worst enemies

Yeah

You don't know me, you knew me

You thought JOKER was a joke that shits my life this ain′t no movie

You torment me and you abuse me

Haunt me, chase me and amuse me

I′m at war inside my mind my OPS are black they hide at night

Like I'm playing Call of Duty

I′m depressed but cancel culture causes me to say that loosely

Why do you Judge if your not JUDY

You ain't my friend you′re dead to me

After what you've done I feel like uzi

I′m done dealing with these Groupies

When they see me they sea food I feel like sushi

Oh it's funny right 'cause it′s not happening to you

I wear a size 13 men′s

There's no damn way you could walk in my shoes

Take this pain and do what I do

While making songs that people use

To get through shit I can′t get through

While they laugh, hate, destroy, and constantly ridicule

You guys are pitiful, you take my words and you twist them

That's why I don′t want to do interviews

I told my mom I was suicidal

And she cried and then screamed what the he'll has got into you

I don′t know mom, maybe those people who laugh, hate, spin the truth

And pray you fail and once you do- ha ha ha ha ha

They start kicking you

Fuck, they tried to put try me in a hospital bed

Diagnose me and stuff me with meds

All it ever did was fuck up my head

They Anti depress you

Until you're depressed again

And then you depend on the pills

That made you independent

What a shame

I'm stuck in a cycle

I′m the hero, villain, traitor and somebody else′s idol

I make songs about my broken heart and about Bible

If you feel depressed or wanna kill yourself I'm not liable

Let me clarify and get this straight

I make songs that no one else can make

That millions love ′cause they relate

Then get half the recognition but twice the hate

Then Reinvest and do it all again

At a quicker speed than anyone driving in my lane

Then I smile and wave, work and slave, talk to my fans everyday

While you troll and only take breaks to take a shit or masturbate

Then claim my life's a piece of cake

Like you could somehow do it even though

We know you wouldn′t 'cause you′re to God damn afraid

Don't even join my circus this time I'm not in the mood

Go listen to that mainstream music

Or whatever you friends think is cool

I′ll sit here and play the fool, while you drool

And drown inside my tears that fill, Olympic pools

Even Michael Phelps couldn′t endure, Furthermore

I'm tired of drinking and waking up on the floor

Tired of living a life I cannot afford

Tired of living my life for people who never saw me

As equal who hate me and just try to ignore

No more, it′s war, I'm evening this score

Killing everyone that walks through that doors

And tells me I need wings to soar

So let me take the knife the gun and stop pointing them at myself

I′ve hurt enough it's time for you to feel it along everyone else

Society needs sobriety

We put people down for notoriety

Love in public but destroy them privately

Adding creating anxiety

Then we want love and don′t get it oh the irony

This was a poem I wrote in my diary

Fighting demons deep inside of me

I feel alone yet I'm constantly fighting for privacy seeking truth

While everyone I know lies to me

It's ironic ′cause people who knew me the best didn′t support me

Until I finally made it now they wanna fake it and act like they love me

When I know they don't even like me

You ain′t slick

I remember the day dude fucked my bitch

I remember rejection after rejection

And going home wanting to slit my wrists

I remember that coach who said I wasn't shit

Then took my fucking scholarship

And all those kids who used to bully me because I didn′t fit in

How does it feel?

When you see me now

They say if you're alone and fall it doesn′t make a sound

What goes up must come down

Unless, you get a knife and cut a smile so you never frown