Tonight the monsters in my head

Are screaming so damn loud

But I built walls so highSo they never even make a sound

It′s a mask, it's a lie

It′s the only home I've ever known

'Cause being who I really am

Has only left me more alone

I am not okay

And I need you to see it

I have so much to say

And no one to hear it

The reason I keep quiet

With so much at stake

I always feel like a burden, let it silence me

You′ll never understand

Why it′s so hard to say

I'm not okay

I wish I had a scar

Had a bruise on the surface, any kind of proof

That everything I feel is more than just some sad excuse

My life′s invisible abuse

I'm either judged or have to hide

The only symptom you can see

Is I don′t wanna be alive

I am not okay

And I need you to see it

I have so much to say

And no one to hear it

The reason I keep quiet

With so much at stake

I always feel like a burden, let it silence me

You'll never understand

Why it′s so hard to say

I'll never have the words, I can't explain this hell

But what if it kills me

If I keep it to myself?

To myself

I am not okay

And I need you to see it

I have so much to say

And no one to hear it

I am not okay

I am not okay

I′m never safe

It′s not a phase

If I finally break

Would you still stay?

Tonight the monsters in my head

Are screaming so damn loud