I brought you back to life

Saw your flesh turn the color of sand

And it still hurts as much this time

As it did when I hit the floor

In Kalamazoo I watched you turn off

It was all I could do to lift my eyes up

It wasn't me then

Who took you to the edge

And watched you fall

It wasn't me then

Testing your desire

By setting fire

To the House of Jupiter

You never said "the end"

Only spoke to me through mercury

And I escaped the land

Made my way toward history

And California kept me silent

And I find it so hard to stay this quiet

And I will never forget the way

I fell toward what you wanted

And seeing your demise was grand

But I still miss your hands

I still miss your hands

And now I'm flashing back

I see your eyes when they were learning me

And the way you held your breath

When I was naming the stars

But the new year brought too many changes

And you grew tired with my obsession with

Stages