Why do I learn enough to just get by?

Enough to make my family cry

Will I ever escape and would it ever last?

Or will I crawl back?

This is not the life I asked for

I'm face to face with all my demons

Turnmy head but can't ignore

This state I'm in

Will I get to the next?

Will I ever get to have some rest?

Knowing that everything's all good

Barely scraping by, never ahead

Sick of asking help from friends

Will I ever wake up before it's out of hand

When will I learn?

I tell myself to calm down

Sit back,just relax

No need for a heart attack

But I'm having trouble shaking disappointment

Sorry Mom and Dad