Stumbling home through the rain

Temptations tattooed on my brain

Wondering, "Why can′t I just beHappy with me as I am?"

Suffering through all the signs

Blind to all the times I was fine

Used to say, "I don't play fair, I play god

And that′s all that I've got"

I just can't wait to go sit in my room

Contemplate all the ways I could die

Self sabotage is an old friend of mine

And self-care just isn′t worth the time

(Self care just isn′t worth the time)

Seeing sound

Crisis abound

Found nobody's really themselves

Paradise wasted on me

Now let′s see how I fail by design

I just can't wait to go sit in my room

Contemplate all the ways I could die

Self sabotage is an old friend of mine

And self-care just isn′t worth the time

Done rearranging my mind for the chase

Won't let all my ambition go to waste

If everything′s nothing, then what's left to blame?

It all changes, and nothing's the same

Ooh, ooh-ooh-ooh

Watch me fall out of fashion

The high′s finally crashin′ tonight

Ooh, ooh-ooh-ooh

All my demons disguised

And my faults all reprised

Find myself in a lover, the thought makes me shudder

They're just like the others, backtrack and recover

Now I just can′t wait to go hide in my home

Shut the door, be alone, brace the fall on my own (my own, my own)

I just can't wait to go sit in my room

Contemplate all the ways I could die (all the ways I could die)

Self sabotage is an old friend of mine

And self-care just isn′t worth the time

Done rearranging my mind for the chase

Won't let all my ambition go to waste (my ambition go to waste)

If everything′s nothing, then what's left to blame?

It all changes, and nothing's the same