Dear Matthew

I like you a lot

I realize you're in a relationship with someone right now and I

respect that

I would like you to know that if you're ever single in the future

and want to come visit me in California I would be open to spending

time with you

and finding out how old you were when you wrote your first song

Dear Jonathan

I liked you too much

I used to be attracted to boys who would lie to me and think solely

about themselves

and you were plenty self-destructive for my taste at the time

I used to say the more tragic the better the truth is whenever I think

of the early 90's

you face comes up with a vengeance like it was yesterday

Dear Terrance

I love you muchly

you've been nothing but open hearted and emotionally available and

supportive

and

nurturing and consummately there for me I kept drawing you in and

pushing you

away

I remember how beautiful it was to fall asleep on your couch and cry

in front

of you for the first time

you were the best platform from which to jump beyond myself what was

wrong with

me

Dear Marcus

You rocked my world

you had a charismatic way about you with the women and

you got me seriously thinking about spirituality and you wouldn't let

me get

away with kicking me own ass

but I would never really feel relaxed and looked out for around you

though

and that stopped us from going any further than we did

and it's kinda too bad because we could've had much more fun

Dear Lou

We learned so much

I realize we won't be able to talk for some time and I understand that

as I do

you

the long distance thing was the hardest and we did as well as we could

we were together during a very tumultuous time in our lives

I will always have your back and be curious about you about your

career your

whereabouts