Feel like I′m at rock bottom, not a dollar in my pocket

Every time I feel okay, I just point me to all my problems

Why the fuck can't I just stop it? It′s so fucking toxic

How could I wanna be okay so badly and still make no progress?

And some days are worse than others, I admit (rock bottom)

I'm there for you of course but I'm who I forget (rock bottom)

I never show up for myself, it might seem like I′m doing well

But you′d dodge me if I ever let you in (rock bottom)

Put my life in God's hands and pray to him that he don′t drop it

At this point I feel so heartless,

Blame the life I'm stuck in, fuck this

No one ever would survive if my road was what they walking

Why the fuck would I tell someone let my problems be my problems?

That′s my issue from the jump, I never talk about shit

Throughout my life I never thought that anybody'd understand

Then I picked the microphone up and I got it off my chest

And found so many people fighting demons too, now I′m with them

It's us against the world now I know what this

'Bout ′cause I know how it be when the lights go down

And the thoughts come out,

Feel like no way out and you just can′t breathe

Tryna get calmed down but your eyes

Ball out till you feel like you're drowning

In all of your tears till you fall asleep

Then you wake from dreams and you

Feel like shit ′cause it's make-believe

And then it′s fuck it, I'm done, I′m going back to sleep

Don't wake me up if you see the sun, that's my biggest enemy

Give me time, I′ll figure it out,

No really, I′m fine, don't think I need any help

Just let me rot ′cause it ain't like I

Feel like I′m at rock bottom (fuck), not a dollar in my pocket

Every time I feel okay, I just point me to all my problems

Why the fuck can't I just stop it? It′s so fucking toxic

How could I wanna be okay so badly and still make no progress?

And some days are worse than others, I admit (rock bottom)

I'm there for you of course but I'm who I forget (rock bottom)

I never show up for myself, it might seem like I′m doing well

But you′d dodge me if I ever let you in (rock bottom)

What's it like getting outta bed

Rubbing the crust outta your eyes and feeling refreshed?

Last night I went to bed around seven PM

Woke up at noon feeling tired, mad it happened again

I woke up, goddamn it, now I gotta get up, acting like I′m fine

Let my face show motivation while this hell invades my mind

Embrace the struggles, that's what makes you

But what happens when you try and they become

The closest thing to your existence? Sick of trying

What′s the point if it's a cycle that I know all too well?

Maybe the fact it′s consistent gives me comfort in its hell

I made friends with the monsters even though I hate how it feels

They're all I've known for so long, it makes it so hard to rebel

But if I keep believing maybe one day something will change

I only try ′cause dying means my name will carry that shame

I have a family that loves me even if I can′t say the same

About myself, so time will tell if I get out, I

Feel like I'm at rock bottom, not a dollar in my pocket

Every time I feel okay, I just point me to all my problems

Why the fuck can′t I just stop it? It's so fucking toxic

How could I wanna be okay so badly and still make no progress?

And some days are worse than others, I admit (rock bottom)

I′m there for you of course but I'm who I forget (rock bottom)

I never show up for myself, it might seem like I′m doing well

But you'd dodge me if I ever let you in (rock bottom)